Reflecting Thoughts…

Thoughts… We all have them. Lately I’ve had a lot of them; dreams, hopes, reflections and memories, they’re all the emotional reality. For some reasons I’ve been reflecting a lot lately, on dreams and the future. What god has for me, my purpose here on earth. There is all these bricks of a puzzle that I’m trying to figure out… but it takes time.


I don’t know… I think letting the mind run its course is the best way of figuring out of things. I don’t like times like these, where I start thinking every spare moment of the day. It’s good for me… I know that, but still it’s hard dealing with everything at once. So many thoughts to sort out and put to rest.

What really is the purpose for me here on earth… What was I born to be, born to do? I guess time will show… but I want some sort of sign or hint… something to help me in the direction I’m meant to go. I know what I love doing… what I would like my passion to be, but the questions still stands. Am I good enough… will it ever be good enough?


Questions… Clueless questions. How would I know the answer to them. I should start focusing on what I want to pursue and achieve. I know deep within that nothing is achievable without hard work and focus. It’s interesting to look back in time… Remembering the past, and how clueless one could be. How much I did and all the things I could’ve done. This is probably what they meant when they told you “You’ll grow up one day, and you’ll see…”. I’m still far from grown up, I’m just seventeen and I have at least ten more years until I can start considering myself an adult.


When I look at this picture of me from a little bit of a month ago I realize how quickly I change. How quickly people change. I don’t remember that boy in that picture… That picture is a collision, loss and revelation ago. People might not believe me, but after two months of living in LA you learn a lot. I didn’t expect this or that… I really did not expect this much to happen in eight weeks. Thinking of it; eight weeks is not a long time, but looking back… It’s a really long time.

I love writing like this… Freely, and utterly open. Letting thoughts flow by writing it down. Reflect on things by writing it down. Even though I’m not addressing everything, I’m still able to reflect in my head. Letting new positive things flow through instead.  I live, I learn and I survive and succeed.

~ S E

“When people hu…


“When people hurt you over and over, think of them like sandpaper. They may scratch and hurt you a bit, but in the end, you end up polished and they end up useless.”


I suppose it’s healing time, because I’ll never be free to run away! Anyways before I turn this blog into a black hole of feelings I’m going to tell you that I’ve started on the review of Cinder (5 stars). I’ve also started reading Scarlet (The Lunar Chronicles #2)! 😀 I also have pictures to share from my latest tour with Five Impossible Minutes in Sweden!



~ Sindre

Sickness & Reading . . .


It’s happy but sickness friday. Yes I’ve catched a cold or something, because my throat was killing me yesterday, and today I’ve gotten the headache so It’s been Friday a.k.a. relaxing day. It’s been a really good day actually. There have been some family troubles, because my brother have had some problems. It’s all okay now, but i’m a bit shocked still.


I’ve spent my day mostly on my computer, but I started a new book today even though I’m currently reading two other books and have a small amount on wait. I have what I call a Unsecure Reading period. It’s the time when I just can’t stick to one book, and always feel like starting a new book… haha 😀

11235712_largeThe book I started reading many of you have probably heard of. It’s called Cinder” by Marissa MeyerSo far the book is amazing, really amazing. It’s about this girl called Cinder who’s a cyborg. The story is based around the story of Cinderella, but it’s a completely different story. The story happens in New Beijing, and Cinder has a beautiful, but threatening future ahead of her. Love it!

I went for some researching on Marissa Meyer’s blog, and she stated that she’s finished “Cess” which is the third book in The Lunar Chronicle. She said that ARC’s would be ready in June, and she also addressed an e-mail to her editor who delivers these ARCs… Use a few seconds to think of what I did 🙂 I actually wrote a mail to her publishing asking for an ARC to review. I wrote a nice mail about my blogging story, and how I rate and just introduced myself. I really hope that I’m one who get chosen to read and review that ARC 😀


I’ve actually received ARC’s before from NetGalley, most of them in eBook format, but I didn’t have my Kindle then. I’ve also received one in paperback format. This is actually my second time requesting in person by e-mail, but this is the first one I’m actually super excited for and I have all my fingers and toes crossed. I’ll keep all of you updated if I get an answer 😀

Well this was basically my day, now before I go to sleep I’ll continue on reading Cinder. 😀

What are your Weekend plans? Have you ever requested any books/ARC’s before? What are you reading at the moment?

Good Night VitreousLifers, 😉

~ Sindre

Exercise & Goals . . . Working Out


Part #2 . . . Majoring on Working Out! Super excited on what your working out plans are. Your preferences, and your goals on being active and working out. At least here’s mine 😀


I truly believe first of all that you gotta work really hard for what you want. That’s also meant in terms of training. You can’t go all easy and think you’ll get your results just like that. Training is painful, and of course not always fun. I love working out, but there are also times when I’d rather go to bed and stay there. 😀 When you work out you gotta give it your all, push your boundaries and just train so hard that you know you’ll feel sore tomorrow.

Of course not everything is for everyone. You have to find something you like doing, something you feel confident doing. Keep in mind this; I hate when people isn’t open to trying new things at least within training . . . I advice everyone to keep an open mind, because you’re just ruining it for yourself. I actually have an example; my friend Hanna hates dancing, she feel’s terrible about dancing, because quotation “I can’t dance”. She actually refuses to try Sh’bam or Zumba for that matter. In the beginning I also felt like that, but I tried it and loved it . . . Now I’m doing Sh’bam every Monday… It’s been my anual cardio exercise for weeks now.

Just to clear somethings due to the fact that I said that you have to work out until you’re gonna feel really sore. That doesn’t mean you’re gonna work out more or do the same muscles every time. You’re muscles need rest, and when working out certain muscles, they need a regeneration time of about 24 – hours. Another thing is that… It’s enough with 3-4 work outs a week. When I say work outs I mostly refere to strength training, because you can do cardio, or just go for a run almost anytime. At least as summer comes along, the feeling of running in the sun is basically like an orgasm 😀


Finishing up this part I’ll share my working out preferences. I have a routine on when I work out each week and there’s no slacking. I have gotten a lot of help from a friend; Lasse who is studying sport. You never say no to a personal trainer, hehe 😀 He’s pushing me a lot and I like that, because you provide so much more when you’re under pressure.


MONDAY: Sh’bam & BodyBalance (mix of. TaiChi, Yoga, Strength and Pilates)

TUESDAY: Strength training w/Lasse

SATURDAY: Cardio/Strenght w/Lasse

This plan works perfectly for me and my preferences. I really love running, and actually dancing too (who would’ve guessed) and this work out plan is a mixture of that. On Monday I get to dance and improve my balance and strength. On Tuesday I get pure strength training and at last on Saturday I get a majored training on cardio and endurance, and a little bit of strength as well. Aside from the work out plan, I have dancing on friday at school, and I also have a really active life already. I also walk a lot, take the stairs instead of the elevator and take small decisions that makes the day more solid and active. That last pointer is something everybody could do just to get started on an active lifestyle. 😀

Wow… Now I’ve finished part #2 and this part is a part I’m actually really happy with. Do share your thoughts and your workout plans and everything that has something with exercise and working out to do! 😀

Enjoy This Beautiful Week! ❤
~ Sindre

I’ve always known what I wanted to be, but not how that’ll be!

I can start of by saying that I hate telling people what I wanna be. It’s because I’m so afraid of disappointing people, and maybe mostly afraid of disappointing myself. I’ve actually known all my life what I wanted to do, but not quite in detail… if you know what I mean? I’ve known that It’d have something to do in the entertainment business. I wanna be an actor



I’ve had this ambition for a really long time, and people say that dreaming is healthy, but not always. For me it’s scary… terrifying in all ways, but still comforting. It’s what I wanna do, I’m inspired of people and personalities. I love digging deep and being someone else. Acting is my way of doing that… It’s my way of taking a break from reality. Feeling a characters pain is lovely, and when I’m assigned a role… I am that role until the role is closed and I’m done.  It’s weird being around me when I’m working, because I automatically become my character and do what my character would’ve done. (enough of that; I might make a post of funny incidents happening when I’m in role)

They say that if your dreams doesn’t scare you, they aren’t big enough”

I’m planning on moving to LA when I turn eighteen or nineteen. Don’t start judging me already… because I feel like that’s what I’m supposed to do. I don’t think that I’m better than anyone, or have a better chance than anyone. I’m only saying that it’s the right thing for me to do. I don’t know why, but my instincts tell me that. It’s what I have ahead of me. Of course I dream of making it in Hollywood, who doesn’t? I’m terrified to get my hopes up, and I believe that’s both important and good. People often tell me that I’m special and unusual compared to many others, but personally I don’t quite believe so though I feel different in many ways. 


Me as many others deal with insecurity, but of course it get’s better. I’m dealing with it as many others, but still it’s there. Am I pretty enough? Am I talented enough? Am I hot enough? Do people like me? Will I ever find my true love? These are some of the things I deal with. I personally don’t thing I own any beauty at all, but I still know I’m not pure ugliness either. I wanna feel admired like some of the other boys. I often think that since I’m not good or hot/pretty enough I’ll never make it serious within acting. Still I don’t want to give up on this dream. I know that this is what I wanna do… I seriously wanna be an actor...

ImageThe biggest reason that my dreams scares me is all the things that comes in between. Like how will I get an apartment there? How will I survive, get a job and money for rent? Will I ever find the courage to make it my all on auditions? Will I ever be casted? Will I ever find a talent managerIt’s all the pieces that’s needed for it to be fulfilled. I believe that I’ll make a living there somehow, but it’s too unpredictable to think that I can survive being an actor. 

Still I believe that dreams can come true no matter how hard it will be. As long as you work your hardest towards your goals, there’ll always be a light on the other end of the tunnel. I believe that I’ll make a living in LA, if not as an actor, it might be something else. I believe that this is the right path for me, and I promise I will work my fucking ass off to make as much as possible my reality! 😀

I wont call myself an actor before I’m there… I’ll always be an aspiring actor, and I’ll still keep my dream a little secret until I can prove that I’ve made it. I know the chances, and they also scare me, but I choose to not think about it, and just staying positive no matter what. 

What’s your dream, your plans and hopeful future?